<link rel="File-List" href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CBIGBUD%7E1%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtml1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml"><!--[if gte mso 9]>
Normal
0
false
false
false
MicrosoftInternetExplorer4
<!--
/* Font Definitions */
@font-face
{font-family:Wingdings;
panose-1:5 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0 0;
mso-font-charset:2;
mso-generic-font-family:auto;
mso-font-pitch:variable;
mso-font-signature:0 268435456 0 0 -2147483648 0;}
/* Style Definitions */
p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal
{mso-style-parent:"";
margin:0in;
margin-bottom:.0001pt;
mso-pagination:widow-orphan;
font-size:12.0pt;
font-family:"Times New Roman";
mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman";}
@page Section1
{size:8.5in 11.0in;
margin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in;
mso-header-margin:.5in;
mso-footer-margin:.5in;
mso-paper-source:0;}
div.Section1
{page:Section1;}
-->
Hello everyone buddahluv, Tonight I am talking to everyone
from the heart. Have you ever wondered to
yourself, why is this happening to me? I have made many mistakes in my
life, and I am still paying for some of them. I feel like what am I here for?
It seem like every thing I try to do never works. You think you doing everything right, but you
are no where near it. I have been
letting my finances go down the drain with, poor management, and trying to find
the next big thing. I had the PRO BALL dream when I was younger, but those bad
decisions at the time, closed that window. My other dream is to be an
entertainer, I am still pursuing that dream as we speak, its moving slow, but
im getting there. Have you ever felt like something big is waiting for you, you
can feel it, but you try to get to it, but everything you do, moves you farther
away from it? And your asking what am I doing wrong? That’s something that you
have to look in the mirror and really look back at all the the CAUSES that you
have done to get the EFFECTS you have received. I am the first one to tell you
that I mess up on a lot of sh*t,
multiple times, even sometimes becoming a creature of habit but I never
stop trying to obtain more discipline and focus and humbleness to become wiser
and make better decisions, to advance more in life. Most times people fail because they don’t put together a
solid plan to stick to, so everything
you do will be half assed. (Believe me I
know.)
Life will only be one thing and one thing only…what you make
it. When you live influenced by evil, nothing good comes from it. When you live
good, bad unexpected things still can happen, but you will find the “cloud with the silver lining” in the outcome
somewhere down the line by having
unconditional faith. How many gangsters do you know have died from
natural causes? Well actually, when you think about, all of them.
They died from the natural causes of living that life. I find myself living
from check to check, and sometime not even that. Its been almost impossible now to find a
decent second part time job. The only thing that I truly flat out own is my
car. I have been in a relationship for almost 2 years and I have been putting a
strain on it with my poor judgment and management of money and how to go about
for our future. I know my lady loves me, but I tell myself sometimes, I hope I don’t mess this up. But sometimes I
end up doing certain dumb sh*t, that hurts the person im supposed to protect. I’m
the first to tell you straight up, I don’t do everything right. I can be stubborn;
I can be lazy at times also. But as I
began to look in the mirror, and stared myself in the eyes, all I could see was
the decisions I was making back then, leading up to the stale mate that I am
enduring now. And I see that the one thing that I was lacking, (besides praying
and getting to know God better) is PATIENCE. Patience is a key factor in all
aspects of life. From arguing and fighting, and not listening to one another,
having a short temper, patience plays a major role (besides God) in our
everyday life. Patience brings humbleness, leads to better understanding when
obtaining knowledge, and gaining wisdom from applying obtained knowledge. From
reading the bible, and other self improvement books, (and most importantly,
applying patience into everyday life) I
have realized that and now I have begun my 360, and it’s been a slow process,
but progress is being madeJ I am making plans to obtain more patience everyday.
It leads to better health, better brain function, improved focus, increased
energy and motivation levels, able to make wiser decisions, lowers blood
pressure, and keeps heart rate normal, and ladies, it can also make you look
younger (hence no stress, no lines! lol) . At 29, I’m not looking to have any
strokes or heart attacks any time soon. I don’t have any kids now, but I would
like to have them in the near future, I am sharing this with you because I know
there are millions of people who are just like me, they know that there is something
great waiting for them, but don’t make the right decisions to make that
something great manifest, but yet you still get other little blessings for
other things you do. And I have realized that i get those little blessing
because God still sees my hearts is good and he still rewards me for those
little things I do for him J. but until I
change my mind frame to manage my finances better and to continue to give and
help more, to call on and have faith in him 24/7, to not run own well dry helping others,(just to start
the list..) I cant receive the bigger blessings he has waiting for me. So do
you know what that means? It means that god loves you, and he has seen
something special in you and he has enough patience and compassion, to wait for
you to and guide you to him to receive that great something! But you have to
have patience and to have your EEAH
(pronounced ee-yah) (Eyes , Ears And Heart) open to receive blessings and to
hear him when he guides you, and you have to have the want, need, and desire to
believe and take action . I am a true believer in God, I know he exists. I am
still on my journey to self greatness, and I would like to help as many people
as I can that want and need the
help, because everyday you can learn
something new from someone. Every story is
unique and can help someone else. I am a gospel hip hop artist, and my
quest is to reach as many of God’s servants and friends as I can with my music.
Im
just here to relate to my peopleJ
hope you can relate back. I thank you for reading and I hope that you have
gained some insight and that this has helped you or someone you know. I thank you for your time,
till the next tim, please take care. if you like gospel rap check this out:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U3UqLmnEQ9o
